I don't know why.. but my iPod's working against me. I'm sittin' here, on my bed, listening to music that.. well.. gets me thinkin' of him again. I dunno.. I was standing in front of my mirror rubbing aloe vera on my face (i'm sunburned, hahaha. story will come up after.), and I just got to thinking... Maybe it was too soon.
It's sad... I'm still not over him, yet I wouldn't go back to him. No matter how much I want to. It just won't work.. He says he's changed, and he did, for a little while, but he's turning back into the same guy he was before. Maybe he's a little less of an asshole, I'll never know. I can't help but think I want him back. Oh well, either way, it's a lose lose situation for me.
So it's been a long time since i've blogged. Been busy(:
Went to that JROTC ball thing. That was fun.. Nick looked great in his blues and we had a good time(: I feel as if I talked about this before.. hm.. oh well. It was hilarious though. One of the marines there (there were six counting Nick. Three were older though.) addressed Nick when he was about to walk away after I introduced him to the whatever he is. he goes, "Lcpl, can I ask you a question?" And Nick turns around and says, "Sure." And we both thought he was going to ask a question about joining the fleet because the guy had JUST gotten out of boot camp a week ago but he says, "Can you tell me how to put this belt on...?" I tried to stifle the giggles but not too well. He launched into a story about how they never taught them how to put it on and how it's just a square when you first get it in a box and blah blah blah. He was HILARIOUS! After Nick explained everything and showed him how to do it he thanked us and went back to his date. I told him it didn't matter if he wore it correctly or not, he still looked great. Hahaha.. funny kid...
The PFC that asked Nick how to tie his belt is to the far left. That old dude who was the guest speaker (long story about him, very neat guy). Me, and then Nick.Anyway, so... yeah. Pictures should be coming in on Wed, I was notified. I'm looking forward to receiving them. Omg, just funny stories all around the ball. Like, no joke. I can waste a whole post on it! xD
But yes, uh.. so this weekend was fun. Friday a little after my shift was over Nick came up and we went to dinner. I surprised him over dessert when I gave him my gift. He was wondering why my purse was so bulky. Lol.
I had offered to get him a watch an old family friend of mine was selling for super cheap. It's a bit pricy, especially in these economic times and my no income job, but I still offered to buy it. However, a friend of hers messaged her two minutes before I did about buying it. Oh well. I fell in love with the model of the watch so I went hunting to buy my own. I knew Nick would be bummed out about not receiving the watch after all. He seemed a little relieved though when I told him she sold it to someone else. Haha, so yeah. I went hunting for another watch, same model, different color, without telling him. Nixon Player, all black, real diamond, Japanese quartz hand movements... it's a beauty. He walked into my work when I was about to start wrapping it. Hahaha... Told him to wait outside while I rushed wrapped it real crappy and stuffed it into my purse. Lol.
Anyway, I told him this, "Nick, I know you were really looking forward to that watch I was gonna get you and I felt really bad for not getting it for you." And after he disagreed a few times he finally admitted that he did look forward to it a bit. I kept pressing him to say it(: Anyway, I pulled it out of my purse and said, "So.. I got you a little something else." He looked at me in disbelief and was like, are you serious? and i'm like, yeah..? He finally opened it and .. hahaha.. The look on his face<3...
OMG. My ex pisses me off.. whatever.. It's my fault. I should've dealt with him a long time ago..
Anyway, so yeah. Nick LOVED the watch. I liked it from the moment I first saw it.
So.. Saturday morning, I went to the Bolsa Chica Ecological Reserve aka, Bolsa Chica Wetlands. I arrived thirty forty minutes or so before my class and sat in my car waiting before I finally decided to walk across the street and just look around. I used to volunteer my club there all the time. Good times. We'd always go kayaking after(: Super fun! All the million dollar homes sittin' right on top of that water. Beautiful.
After I got home from that, Nick came over and we went hiking in the Sierra Madres. I've been wanting to go back for forever but the one person I wanted to go with walked out of my life so.. meh. It was great going with Nick. I felt so energetic! It was a beautiful hike. We took the First Water Trail to Hermit Falls. We plan on going the other way instead next time - the trail I went on with my sister, her boyfriend, and his cousin? Yeah.. we got trapped up on the mountain after that... Wildfires.. Scary stuff.
Gah. Got distracted by Chris messaging me. He's over in Iraq right now. Poor guy hurt his knee while working.. :/ I worry about him.. Along with Danny in Afghanistan.
Okay so.. hiking was super fun! The trail we took lead to these waterfalls splashing into these deep pools that trailed on and over the rocks to more granite.. Okay, pretty much? It's a three part waterfall. Each pool being deeper than the other. It looks like a GREAT place to go swimming in the summer! Google 'Hermit Falls' and you can get an idea of what the waterfalls look like. When Nick and I went, we found two ropes that you can use to get to the bottom of the falls. Be CAREFUL - it's a bit dangerous. The rocks are SUPER slippery too. And if you wet your feet, you're sure to slip on this smooth rock surface. I'll ask Nick if he could give me some pictures from his camera. I didn't have mine :/ Let Leslie borrow it, remember?
I almost slipped and could've gotten washed down the first part of the falls. I was trying to hop over the mouth of the fall, but decided to use the small island of rock that the water was running around. Stupid me, hahaha. I hit the water felt my foot slip a little, panicked, and jumped to safety on the other side. The water is just that clear. Thankfully, it wasn't as deep as the area around it so nothing happened. Just a wet foot, shoe, and sock that made me lose even more traction. Haha.. But overall, it's a beautiful fall. I plan on going at least once in the summer to go swimming in it's deepest pool<3
Sunday, I was playing in the sun at the park. I totally got sunburned from playing volleyball. The sun was so bright... I had a fun time though. Besides the fact my skin was acting up (I have a bit of a skin problem, it's hereditary but only I seem to have it.) and I was getting super itchy and bumpy but I survived. And my sunburn isn't even that bad at all(:
Came home. Nick was waiting for me for like half an hour or so. Yikes. We watched a movie, my parents invited him to stay for dinner, ate dinner, he napped while I finished my homework, and I sent him home.
I can't WAIT to go hiking again! I'm planning on going again on the 16th. Trying to get a small group together so we can carpool. Anyone interested? Just shoot me a message(: Or a text.
So, hiking. Sierra Madres. I plan on going on the trail to Sturtevant Falls. May 16, 2009. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. But seriously, hiking. It's SUPER fun<3 I wanna make this a monthly thing. Lets totally go!
With much love,
Sarah
EDIT: OMG. I forgot to explain the title of my blog, lol. Winner at a Losing Game by Rascal Flatts. I'm a HUGE Rascal Flatts fan. But it's true. I won at a losing game. I've fell in love with something that'll never happen. Great song, give it a listen. Peace out.
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